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Wednesday, April 20, 2011
The final chapter! Thanks to everyone who has followed Ted's story this far.
After a fifteen-minute ride that Ted found every bit as harrowing as the one on Furious Rhythm, they arrived at the parking lot for Papa Bear’s. When he’d gotten in the Jeep Ted hadn’t known Jake’s license was all of four days old. Several near misses with fellow motorists and one very lucky pedestrian had cleared Ted’s mind, and nearly his bowels. Somehow they’d gotten to their destination in one piece, and Ted leapt out of the vehicle, resisting the urge to kiss the ground like a liberated hostage.
Papa Bear’s was as much of an eyesore as the Stockbridge Planning Board would allow, and that only here, out on the crowded commercial artery leading from the highway to the downtown, tucked at the end of a strip mall alongside a Rite Aid pharmacy and an Everything for a Dollar store. The asphalt expanse between building and street was jammed as it always was on a Saturday night; only three years old, the novelty had not worn off. Ted negotiated his way past Volvos and Chevys, Jake and Meg trailing behind, to where a large neon bear beckoned patrons into the bright yellow entryway of the chain family restaurant.
The lobby of the restaurant was cluttered with standard kitsch, haphazard displays on the wall of vanilla sports memorabilia and anachronistic farm tools alongside velvet renderings of 50’s movie stars. A young woman in a red shirt and black pants intercepted them with a broad plastic smile, short and cookie-cutter peppy, with a wad of bubblegum in her cheek. She asked pointedly if they had called ahead for a table, and only then did Ted notice the dozen people sitting in the faux-wood benches, clearly waiting to be seated.
“It’s fine,” Ted glanced down at the gum-cracking hostess’ nametag, “Becky. We’re looking for someone who’s already seated.” He ignored the proffered light-up coaster designed to alert them when they’d won the table lottery and looked easily over her head into the vast and crowded dining room. Ted had been there once, with Mike and Lisa and the kids, and he remembered it as mediocre fare consumed with so much background noise that conversation was nearly impossible. Little had changed, and the cacophony of voices echoed from every direction.
“There,” Jake pointed toward a secluded booth in the back corner, where Jill’s unmistakable red hair was visible. Ted brushed past Becky’s protests and strode toward Jill and her companion. Jake and Meg followed, conscious of the ripple of gossip Ted’s appearance had caused, the buzz in the restaurant somehow growing even louder in anticipation of An Incident. It made Jake uncomfortable and he shrunk into his letter jacket, while Meg virtually skipped down the aisle, knowing she was part of the show and loving it.
Ted arrived at the cozy booth in the corner, unaware of the attention fixed in his direction. There were two people in the vinyl red benches, seated across from each other and deep in conversation. One was Jill, beautiful Jill, the face he had come to love so much, looking back at him now with her mouth a round O of shock. The other was a tall, thin man Ted had never laid eyes on before but hated on sight. Angular face, long nose, thin lips and curly brown hair turned as one to examine the intruder.
“Can I help you, buddy?” Ed asked, and as he glanced at Jill he realized who had interrupted their dinner. His eyebrows pinched together and his face flushed red.
“I’m not your buddy. And I’m here to talk to Jill.” Ted had not taken his eyes off her. The background noise had died away, replaced by an anticipatory silence, like that of the crowd at a baseball game before a meaningful pitch.
Ted never saw Ed burst out of the booth and slam into him with his shoulder, knocking Ted to the floor to the audible gasp of the other patrons. Ted quickly scrambled back to his feet and fixed Ed with a malignant stare. Now this guy had his attention.
“Damn it, Ed!” Jill moved to get on her feet, but Ed threw an arm back to block her.
“Sit down, Jill. This is that Gray dude, right? You told me he took off, that he was bad news, a real scumbag. I see what you meant.”
Ted’s ears were burning, though he knew Jill would never have said anything like that. It was just talk, and Ted had had a lifetime of talk, was sick to death of talk. And he wasn’t about to let a pencil-neck jerk like this get under his skin, let alone land another sucker blow. He looked at Jill and her eyes were pleading with him, but he couldn’t read them. Was she begging him to stay? Or begging him to go?
“Jill, I came back for you. I’m not going to DC. I was wrong to leave.” He threw all of the cards down on the table. “I belong here, we both do.”
He saw the punch coming from a mile away.
Lifting his left arm Ted easily blocked the clumsy assault and dropped a sharp jab to Ed’s temple. The other man dropped to the ground with a groan, and Ted ignored him, ignored his smarting knuckles, focusing just on Jill, who was crying now.
“Jill…” he reached out for her, and she raised a hand in response. Their fingers touched, and Ted knew he’d made the right decision, knew that everything else could be sorted out later. That was when the screaming started.
“He’s got a gun!” It was not one shriek, but several, and suddenly the back corner of Papa Bear’s was no longer such a popular place. Ted turned slowly around to see Ed Kendall, kneeling on the ground, his eyes barely focused, an angry red welt above his left ear. In his hands was a snub-nosed pistol he must have had stashed in his jacket. Time slowed as Ted moved to ensure he was between the weapon and Jill. What the hell was this maniac doing with a fucking gun? was Ted’s first thought. His second was to notice that Ed’s right index finger was moving, squeezing the trigger of the pistol.
No shot came. Instead a blur of gray and white exploded from the watching crowd and smothered Ed, knocking the weapon from his hands to skitter harmlessly across the floor. In moments, Ed was pinned beneath the tall and lanky form of Bobby Craig, who crouched with one knee jammed into the prone man’s back.
“Somebody call the cops,” he muttered, looking down and avoiding eye contact with Ted. Kid always was good in the clutch, thought Ted absurdly. Glancing toward where Bobby had come from he saw the boy’s father, and their eyes met for a silent moment. Oxygen rushed back into dozens of lungs that had held their breath, and Jill, who had thrown her arms around Ted as Kendall had taken aim, detached herself. She took a couple of steps forward.
“Careful, Miss Ward,” grunted Bobby. Jill ignored the warning, standing alone and staring down at Ed. The face on the floor was splotched red with wrath, gasping as Bobby exerted painful force on one awkwardly bent arm. She leaned low, her heart still beating fast, but she wasn’t angry any more. She felt nothing but pity for the broken man on the tiled restaurant floor.
“Goodbye, Ed,” Jill said. Straightening, she turned back to Ted Gray, who stood unmoving, his clothes filthy and his hair a mess. In two quick steps she was in his arms, feeling him against her, feeling at home. In a few moments two uniformed members of the Stockbridge Police Department arrived, and after a few questions Ed Kendall and his gun were collected and taken away.
“I love you,” Ted murmured into Jill’s hair. Looking over her shoulder he saw Bobby, hands in his pockets, finishing his interview with one of the cops. “Thanks, Bobby. I owe you one.” The words were out of his mouth before Ted had really even thought about what he was saying.
“How about helping me graduate?” Bobby asked quietly, sweeping his long hair out of his eyes. “I – there’s still a recruiter or two that have said they’ll still consider me, based on how I finish the year.” Jill looked up at Ted, pulling away slightly.
“Well?” she asked. “Are you going to be around?”
Ted looked into Jill’s bright green eyes and broke into a wide grin.
END PART ONE
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
The rickety pickup truck rattled to a stop on Old Mill Road. Ted, frozen to the bone, stretched out his stiffened legs and hopped out. The jarring landing on the dirt of the roadside sent a surge of pain through his chest that made him suck in his breath.
“Thanks George,” he called to the old man in the cab along with his two German Shepherds. George Strickland leaned out the window, John Deere cap perched on a white head, lit cigarette dangling from his mouth.
“You sure you’re all right, boy?” he yelled back, and Ted nodded wearily. He had crossed to the northbound shoulder in a blood-chilling dash and walked for half an hour before George Strickland of all people had stopped to see if he needed a ride. George had lived in Stockbridge all his life; his family had owned the Strickland Apple Orchard for generations. Like everybody else in Stockbridge, it seemed he owed Archie Gray an old favor and was happy to pay it back to his son.
“Ho-kay,” George shouted. “Sorry again about the bed – the boys won’t allow anyone up front.” He grabbed the muzzles of his dogs and shook them affectionately. Ted had been just as happy not to ride between Grant and Lee, though it had been a body-numbing experience. The old pickup slowly engaged into first gear and puttered off into the darkness. Ted turned and hurried down the long dirt driveway, turned to mud in the autumn rains and now frozen into uneven ruts. It was pitch black, and he tripped a couple of times negotiating his way, but managed to keep his feet. When he arrived at the house the front entryway was lit but all of the windows were dark, and there were no cars in the driveway. He rang the bell and knocked, but there was no answer from within.
Ted had been certain she’d be here. He knew Jill, and on a night like this there was no way she’d want to be alone. Apparently the whole family had gone somewhere together. But where? Mike and Lisa’s? he thought. That was probably the best bet, but it was all the way across town. He was exhausted, his bruised ribs were aching, and his entire body was ice cold. He’d never make it on foot. There were bicycles in the garage, but that was locked and Ted had no idea where the Wards kept their spare key. He slumped against the front door, wondering if he should just wait out here until they got home. But his heart was bursting to see her now, and it was so damn cold! The barn would be a warmer place to wait…
Ted jogged down the small hill to the barn, sliding open the main door. The smell of hay and manure filled his nostrils, and he could hear the low snuffling of the three horses inside. He’d never ridden before, having a modest fear of horses, but he had once or twice helped Jill to brush down the old mare, Furious Rhythm. She was a retired racehorse the Wards had adopted ten years before, and now was quietly living out her days content to make a circuit or two of the paddock a couple of times a week. He ducked into the tackroom and gathered together a saddle and stirrups, bit and bridle. Ted was glad Jill had shown him how rig up the gear on the horse then, and he wished she were here now as he tried to remember the process. Of course, if she were here now I’d never be trying to do this by myself. He wished then that he hadn’t been so adamant about refusing to ride when she had offered.
Ted laid down the equipment by the door to the stall where Furious Rhythm was standing. She’d been asleep when he entered the barn, but now was wide awake and watching him, her long graceful head moving slowly from side to side, as if to tell him to forget it.
“Sorry, old girl,” Ted murmured. He took an apple from a basket by the door and held it out as a peace offering as he approached her. The horse sniffed at the gift, and in one swift motion devoured it. Placing one hand on her side, Ted used the other to rub the mare’s nose. She stared at him with her great brown eyes, and Ted leaned in close and whispered, “One more race left in you?”
It was as if she’d heard his plea and decided to help. She let him place the saddle on her back and secure the bit in her mouth. After a few minutes of trial and error he seemed to have it all hooked up correctly. Now he just had to get on. He closed his eyes and thought of Jill, thought of the message she’d left just a few hours ago on his answering machine. You’re a special man…
A special man would get on the horse, Ted thought. Images from the John Wayne movies his father had loved and made him watch on Saturday afternoons leapt to mind. It had always seemed so easy to them, to the point where they could mount on the run or even from a second-story window. Taking a deep breath, he seized the reins and put his left foot in the stirrup, swinging himself up. His ribs protested, but to his utter surprise and delight he found himself sitting in the saddle, even facing in the right direction. Not wanting to hurt the mare, he gently nudged at her sides with his heels. She turned her head to look at him with a bored and unimpressed expression. The he remembered the clicking sound Jill made with her mouth when he’d seen her ride. He managed to duplicate it, and Furious Rhythm moved forward at a leisurely walk.
Fine, thought Ted. At this rate we’ll get there in time for Christmas. Holding on tight as they emerged from the barn, he made the noise again, and kicked with his heels as hard as he dared. Her ears flattened and the horse lurched forward, nearly unseating Ted in the process. She picked up speed, and Ted guided her as best he could up the driveway and onto Old Mill Road. He bounced on the saddle like popcorn in a popper, finally electing to virtually stand in the stirrups and absorb the turbulence with his legs. It was better, and he almost felt like he knew what he was doing. Then she shifted into another gear, and the wind whipped past Ted’s ears with a low roar, his legs starting to ache and ribs screaming in agony.
Jill, Ted thought. He gritted his teeth and held on.
After a dizzying and petrifying ride through town, Ted and Furious Rhythm made the turn onto Langdon Street. Eat your heart out, Paul Revere, thought Ted as they jogged down the road together, slowing to a stop in front of the Heathers’ house. Ted swung his leg over his steed to dismount, and was rewarded with a cramp in his quadriceps. His foot caught in the stirrup and he fell awkwardly to the ground with an unceremonious thud. There was a last whimper of pain from his chest, which had all but given up on being allowed to rest.
He climbed to his feet, and shook off the unnerving sense that the horse was laughing at him. He patted her on the side while he tied her to the Heathers’ mailbox.
“Good girl,” he murmured. “Thanks.”
Legs tender, Ted limped to the front door and knocked. He heard a young voice yell, “I’ll get it!” The door opened and there stood Nan Heather, twelve years old, blond hair like her sister and mother, but curly and short, and with dark features like her father. When she saw Ted her eyes bulged. He put a finger to his lips and winked, and her face split into a broad smile, gleaming with silver braces. Ted nudged past her and up the stairs into the living room.
Mike and Lisa were there on the couch, silent and stunned as Ted hobbled into the room, Abby asleep between them. Meg Heather and Jake Hurlford were cuddled on the hearth of the fireplace, where a low fire was sputtering. Rip Heather was there, mouth open as he had clearly been regaling Jake with some tale of his own athletic exploits, stopping as Ted entered.
“I thought you were leaving?” inquired Mike.
“I thought I was, too,” answered Ted, shuffling into the room. He wanted to sleep for the rest of his life, he was so tired, but he’d never felt so alive. “Where’s Jill?” His eyes raked the room like artillery fire, searching for that missing face. No eyes would meet his, as if there was some great secret he wasn’t in on.
“Mike, man, I’m not kidding. Abby’s here with you guys, and no one is home at her parents, so where the fuck is she?”
“Coach Gray!” gasped Meg in mock horror at the curse, but her mother shot her a dark look and she fell silent.
“That’s Mr. Gray,” he corrected, the slightest hitch in his voice. And he returned his gaze to Mike Heather, who never took his eyes of the label of his beer bottle, as though he’d never found the Budweiser logo so compelling. The continued silence rained on him like physical blows.
“Somebody tell me where she is!” he bellowed.
“She’s at Papa Bear’s.” It was Meg, her young face a mixture of reluctance to tell him and mild shame that no one else would. “Coach…Mr. Gray, she’s with someone.” The floor opened beneath Ted and threatened to swallow him whole, and the cold and fatigue and labors of the journey back to Stockbridge caught up to him all at once. He felt a million years old in that moment, felt as he had standing over the graves of his parents. Completely lost and alone. The easiest thing in the world would be to sink to one knee, as he was about to do, then to the floor, and never get up again.
Ted wasn’t sure if that was his father’s voice or his own. It hardly mattered. His mouth became a hard, thin line.
“Thanks, Meg.” He turned to Mike. “Give me your keys, Mike.” His friend shook his head.
“I can’t, man,” he whispered. “Ted, it’s Kendall. It’s Abby’s father.” The edges of Ted’s vision darkened, as though he would pass out, but he pushed it back.
“If there’s a chance for them,” Lisa murmured, gently, “don’t you have to give them a chance?”
“Mike, give me your damn keys.” It was as though he hadn’t heard them. He stood in the middle of the room, swaying slightly as he fought back the waves of exhaustion that crashed over him. There was silence again, as painful and achingly lonely as before.
“Fine,” he finally said, his voice empty and flat. He thought of another horse ride, this one even longer, out to the commercial strip where Papa Bear’s family restaurant was. He couldn’t face that. “Thanks anyway. I’ll walk.” He headed down the stairs and out the front door.
Ted was heading up the street when he heard the front door of the Heathers’ house open and then swing closed loudly. He grinned. I knew Mike wouldn’t let me down. But when he turned, it wasn’t his friend, but his friend’s daughter, boyfriend in tow. Meg ran toward him and grabbed his arm. She had hurriedly pulled on a sweatshirt and was pulling her long yellow hair free as she smiled at him, tugging him back toward the driveway.
“Jake’ll drive,” she volunteered breathlessly, and he nodded, a sheepish grin on his face. Jake was a tall boy, athletic and handsome, polite and hardworking. He was the proverbial old man’s idea of what a young man should be.
“I got your back, Coach Gray,” he said as they piled into his Jeep. Ted got into the front seat as Meg squirmed into the cluttered rear, amongst football pads, golf clubs, and schoolbooks.
“Thanks, Jake.” He was about to correct him about the form of address, but let it go. “You were great tonight, by the way. Hell of a game, kid.” Jake laughed.
“We’d have got them if Bobby wasn’t such an idiot.” He started up the engine.
“Meg,” Ted craned his neck at the young girl folded into the back. “Go inside, OK?” Her face lit up as she laughed prettily.
“And miss this? Are you kidding?” She reached forward and squeezed Jake’s shoulder. “Let’s go.”
Monday, April 18, 2011
Ted sat quietly alongside Maria in the tan leather seats of her luxury BMW. There was a stony silence as she drove and he stared out the window, watching the last familiar buildings of Stockbridge slip by the window and into the darkness. Maria guided the car onto the highway, shifting smoothly into fifth gear. She began to speak over the gentle hum of the engine.
“Shame about the game,” she murmured sympathetically. Ted did not respond, but kept looking out into the night. “What I don’t understand is why you just gave away your biggest advantage.”
“What?” that got his attention.
“That stud you had at quarterback. Would you have won if he had played?”
“I think so,” Ted replied. “Yeah, we probably would have, the way our defense played. But…”
“So you chose not to play him,” Maria interrupted him. “When no one would have faulted you if you found a way to keep him eligible. Hell, the entire town was begging you to play him, from what I hear.” She shook her head. “What were you thinking?”
“That it was the right thing to do?” Ted turned in his seat to face her. She laughed.
“That’s so cute. Just like my father.”
“Just like your…?”
“The whole naïve fair play thing. He sees it like you do, which is nice in the classroom but not in the real world, Ted. During the campaign we found out that his opponent had cheated on his wife, and we had the goods to prove it. Father wouldn’t hear of it, said it had nothing to do with the issues.” She rolled her eyes. “But you can’t give up an edge like that in the big leagues. There’s too much at stake. So we leaked it anyway.” There was a touch of pleasure in her voice, a deliberate, daredevil courting of disaster that frightened Ted.
Dr. Varsalone know?” he asked.
“No,” giggled Maria. “We did it for him, and it ruined that other poor bastard. We probably would have won anyway, but that sealed it.” She seemed very self-satisfied, and she took her eyes off the road to glance at Ted. “We got you out of there just in time, honey, or you would have gotten too old and set in your ways.” She reached over and put her hand on his knee. “But you can still be taught.” Ted looked at her hand and then up at Maria’s glowing face. Had she always been like this?
“Hey, where are the tickets out of
?” he inquired casually. Boston
“In my purse,” she indicated the leather handbag between the seats. Ted saw the two paper envelopes jutting out, and he took them. He stared at the one with his name on it.
Gray/Theodore Boston 22:55 09NOV02 Washington DC 00:45 10NOV02
The print on the ticket began to swim before his eyes in the dim light, and in his head, he heard Jill Ward’s voice. I’m so proud of you…don’t let them take that away… But again in his life, he was giving it away for free, willingly heading down the path away from integrity. And again, too, he was leaving someone behind.
“No,” he whispered. “Not like this.” He looked at Maria. “Stop the car.” She returned his gaze with a fleeting, confused look.
“What? Ted, are you kidding? This is the interstate.”
“I know. Stop the car,” he repeated. She pulled over onto the shoulder.
“Are you sick? What’s wrong?”
As the BMW slowed to a stop, Ted grabbed his bag and jacket and got out.
“Ted!” shouted Maria. “What the fuck are you doing?” He turned and leaned back into the open door. There was a harsh glare from the dome light in the car, but she was still beautiful. God, she was beautiful, and perfect, and everything he didn’t want. He tore the plane ticket neatly in half and then again into quarters, dropping the pieces into the seat he had just vacated. He pulled on his jacket in the chill of the late evening, and smiled at her.
“Goodbye, Maria. Tell your father I’m sorry. But there's someplace I'd rather be.” He closed the door, stifling her protest, and headed off on foot down the side of the four-lane southbound highway. The lights of the oncoming traffic flashed brightly in his eyes, illuminating his uneven breath. He could feel the taillights of Maria’s rented BMW receding behind him, could imagine her stunned surprise. He knew that before long she would make the transition from hurt and rejected to haughty and pissed, and after a few moments he could hear the engine gun and the vehicle screech out into the highway. He turned, briefly, to watch it disappear into the distance until he couldn’t distinguish it from the other cars. For the second time in his life he had walked away from Maria Varsalone. But this time he wasn’t running away. He was running home.
Jill, he thought. I’m coming.
Jill stood in the bathroom of her apartment, trying to hide the puffy redness of her eyes. She couldn’t believe she was going to see Ed Kendall. After she’d hung up on him he’d called back, several times, and in her misery over Ted’s departure she’d agreed to see him. A pitifully small voice was screaming in the back of her mind about how he had hurt her, about how she still loved another man, a better man.
A man who chose someone else, she thought angrily. Or was that even true? It was hard to remember if he had left or if she’d driven him away. And Ed…cocky, smooth Ed Kendall, Sigma Nu legend and the creep who had walked out on her when she was pregnant with Abby.
He’s her father. That was the painful truth of it. Green eyes, still rimmed with pink despite her best efforts, stared back from the mirror. No matter how much of a jerk he’d been then, no matter how much it had hurt when he’d left, he was the girl’s father. Jill had always thought she wouldn’t need one, that they were fine, just the two of them. But in the past weeks she had seen how Abby had seized hold of Ted, how she clearly had been longing for that presence in her life. And for the first time, Jill truly realized how lonely she had been herself, how much she needed it, too.
But Ted was leaving, leaving them both, and Jill had broken her own heart to set him free of this town that was strangling him. The prospect of being alone again was too much to face, and Ed was in town. I don’t need to forgive him, she thought. God knows I don’t have to love him. The simple truth of it was that he was here, in Stockbridge, begging to be a part of her life, while Ted was running away to better things than Jill Ward. That has to count for something.
Jill turned off the bathroom lights and gathered up Abby. She hadn’t told her daughter what she was doing that night, only that Mom was going out and she’d be staying at Mike and Lisa’s. With her parents out of town it was the only place she felt comfortable leaving Abby for a couple of hours while she met with Ed. It would be a while, she thought, before she introduced the two. So soon after the loss of Ted she had no desire to let any man hurt her daughter again.
“Come on, honey,” she called, taking Abby’s hand. Her daughter looked up at her, and as always she was astonished at how like her own eyes her child’s were.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Funny thing about miracles, Ted thought on the bus back to Stockbridge Saturday night. They happen more often when you have a great quarterback. It was eerily silent on the dark bus, none of the spent players talking or laughing, none of the coaches reviewing the game. There wasn’t much to talk about or review. The game had started badly and gotten worse. Chris Stanley had been awful, completing only a handful of his passes, and knowing there was no passing game to fear, the Northport Cougars stacked the line against the running game. The final score was a disheartening 14-0, the low point total a testament to the gutsy play of the Stockbridge defense. Paul Green played the game of his life, with fifteen tackles and three quarterback sacks and two fumble recoveries. It just hadn’t been enough. If Bobby had played…but Ted refused to let himself follow that thought all the way to the end. It was finished.
As the bus pulled into the parking lot at
, Ted got off first and stood at the door, thanking each of the players for their effort and dedication, shaking their hands and hugging many of them. Finally his coaches passed by, and he thanked them as well. As they moved on as a group toward the locker room, he stopped Bill Pope. The assistant coach looked much older than Ted remembered. Stockbridge High School
“I know,” Bill said. He smiled a little, almost by way of forgiveness. “We gave ‘em a hell of a run, didn’t we? Not too shabby.” Ted nodded, and found the next words impossibly hard to say.
“I…I’m done, Bill. Thanks for everything…back then, these last years. I owe you a lot.” The older man shook his head and put a beefy hand on Ted’s shoulder. There was a long pause.
“Go get ‘em, son. We’ll mind this store.” He walked away, stopping once and turning to face his former head coach.
“Your dad would have been proud of you.” And he disappeared into the shadows.
Ted went to his car, trying not to think of Bill’s final words. He drove to his apartment in silence, staring straight ahead as he drove past the old school and down the familiar turns of Lincoln Street and Front Street. Parking in front of his building, he saw Maria Varsalone’s red BMW parked in front of him. As he got out, she emerged to greet him. She was dressed impeccably as always, in a long black coat and stylish white hat. She was beautiful, Ted thought, and as she hugged him he made no effort to pull away. He rested his head on her shoulder for a moment, then stepped back. She looked at him with a dazzling smile on her face, which darkened as she noticed the yellowing bruise on his forehead. He dismissed any questions about it with a gesture.
“If you want to get cleaned up and pack, I’ll wait for you down here.” He shook his head.
“Nah. Come on up, it’s chilly out here. I just want to throw a couple of things in a bag and get out of here. I can come back for the rest later.”
“Okay.” She followed him up the stairs and into his tiny apartment. Ted spent a few minutes collecting some clothes, his shaving kit, and a jacket. Maria perched patiently on his couch, smiling at him each time he passed by. Finally he was ready, opening the door so she could go out first. As he passed after her, he noticed his answering machine on the table by the entryway. He hesitated, then pressed the PLAY button.
“Hi.” He knew the voice right away. Jill.
“I know you must be on your way out,” she continued, and it sounded as if she’d been crying. “I’m not calling to ask you to stay, OK? I just…I just wanted to say I’m so proud of you and everything you did these past days. I know how hard it must have been for you.” Her voice broke on the recording, and for a moment Ted thought it was over, but it wasn’t.
“You’re a special man, Ted Gray. Don’t you let them take that away from you down there. Take care of yourself, OK? I…I love you. Goodbye, Ted.”
Ted stood in the doorway for a long moment, looking down the hall stairs to where Maria had just gone, then back at the machine. Then he pressed DELETE and left, closing the door behind him.
Friday, April 15, 2011
The next day at school he brushed off questions about the purple bruise on his head, claiming he had tripped up the stairs at home. No one believed him, least of all Mike Heather, who eventually stopped prying because he was more interested in talking about the night before.
“You were fantastic,” he chortled over coffee in the staff room before class. “I wonder if they’ll still be thinking about that stuff come baseball season. One fewer parent breathing down my neck about how their kid is the next Nomar Garciaparra and it’ll be worth it.” He looked at Ted, his eyes narrowing. “You got out of there pretty fast last night. Didn’t want to collect the accolades?”
“Yeah, right,” Ted snorted. “There must have been some pretty pissed off people, too. I just feel bad for Bobby, his dad putting him through that.” Ted sipped at his coffee, which was still too hot.
“Well, we’ll all be there in Northport tomorrow afternoon for the game, along with the rest of town.” Mike patted Ted on the shoulder, and he winced at the jolt of pain in his battered ribs.
“Thanks,” he replied weakly
Ted somehow made it through the day, glad for once that some of the people in the hallways were avoiding him, as it kept his tender body from being jostled. He saw Jill once, maybe thirty feet down the corridor, but forced himself not to track her down. He would be leaving tomorrow night, and he didn’t want to jerk her around. Or change my mind, he thought. He endured the pep rally that afternoon, far more subdued than it would have been otherwise. Lurking at the back of the team, he allowed the senior players to take his customary place addressing the crowd, not risking a mixed reaction to him.
After the final walkthrough with the team that night, he gathered the players around him on the darkened practice field. He ignored the fact that many of them were probably still upset. He ignored the fact that the night air in his lungs made his bruised chest ache. Looking around at his guys, he smiled.
“You guys are the Stockbridge Wolves,” he said quietly. “And tomorrow you’re playing for the state football championship. You earned that right. Not one man, all of you. Don’t let that chance pass you by. Don’t be anything less than your best tomorrow. Don’t think about who’s not with us, but how far we’ve come together.” He paused, closing his eyes. He smelled the distinct scent of sweat cooling, of filthy mesh practice jerseys. He could hear the little coughs of boys battling colds, the distant shouts from the parking lot. Ted wanted to remember every detail.
“No one believes we can win tomorrow,” he continued, opening his eyes and scanning the shadowy faces pressing close around him. “Except us. I do. I believe it. Do you?” There were nods, a few muttered responses. He waited, silently, and more players began to answer, progressively louder. After a few moments the scattered words became a yell, and then a prolonged cheering. Ted found Chris Stanley’s eyes and grinned. Maybe, just maybe, there would be a miracle in Northport the next night.